AT MY COMPUTER
Clicking
send and receive, send and receive
Is no
one there at all, no one to hear?
So very
quiet and gloomy all alone.
I am
stuck in this abyss with no place to go.
I keep
anticipating to hear "You have mail" or
the
familiar musical ring,
But
alas it does not happen... forsaken once again.
What
shall I accomplish to maintain a sharp mind?
Refresh
my web site or create a new poem for a brief time?
My dog
pacifies herself adjacent my chair
I gape
over to view her as in her dreams I only hope
they
possess safety, peace and gentleness.
Myself,
I have nightmares and I cannot hold them too dear
They
are only reminders of some of the encounters
I have
dwelled on and fear.
Why
persist at present when no one is there
Just
hoping I presume that someone will share.
Apprehensive
to sleep as pain is imminent then,
Hence
for what reason do I stay awake for an extended span.
No one
beckons or comforts me at that interval,
Only
my faithful dog who is bound all the while.
Someone,
please someone cast me a message to read,
I need
some company before I retire alone in need.
Needing
some comfort, tolerance and a big hug
Would
surely be adequate to allow peaceful sleep
as a
bug in a rug.
How
silly that cliche explains, but overly joyous it would be,
To observe
someone calling...you know I love thee.
No need
to inspect the mail but once more,
I presume
everyone is asleep, I’ll just close my door
Before
I inactivate the computer for the night
I will
give one more opportunity to shine in some light.
No nothing
it seems, I now have to admit,
I’ll
secure my computer and say to myself this is it!
Only
one extended minute again will I remain...
No...no
one to behold, but everlastingly I forgive.
(c) Maureen
B. Black
1998